I often wondered what I'd say in a blog. How I would feel putting my feelings into something and letting the world see my vunerabilities. Remembering hurts, but forgetting would hurt worse.
I spend so much time wishing I could go back, but that isn't possible. To make things more complicated, I am avoiding going through her things and can't bring myself to get rid of anything that was hers.
How do I do this??
I feel lost and alone. She was my bestfriend in the world.
Over time I will learn to deal with her passing, but until then I will just have to go through the emotions.
